To My Son

A note to one of the two loves of my life.

Dear Jackson,

You are 23 weeks & 3 days old today, that means only 17 more weeks till your father & I get to meet you. You have come a long way, even though at times it may not seem like it, half your time baking is already up! 116 days till your EDD, its passing quicker than I thought, you’re going to be Mommy & Daddy’s early Christmas gift (& the best one I will have ever gotten might I add!).  We can’t wait J

I must point out how strong you are getting in there! It seems like just yesterday I was waiting to feel you move now you don’t stop! From little tiny movements to full blown kickboxing you move a lot, especially when I’m trying to sleep (but that’s ok I love knowing you are OK in thereJ) the only time you really quiet down is when your daddy is here (or when I take a shower), EVERY time I want to show him my belly jump you quiet down a whole bunch & hardly move, that’s not very fair! Your dad tells me all the time “Don’t worry, I will get to see him move lots, especially once he is here” But I just wish he could see you go crazy, just once, it makes me smile to no end & I want to share that with him. You should have seen the face when he first felt you move himself! I was feeling your little flutters for a good 3 weeks before you started kicking hard enough for your dad to feel it. I will NEVER forget the first movement you showed him; I had just recorded 2 of your kicks on camera earlier in the day & was going to show him when he came home from work. He walks in the door & is on the phone with a friend from work so as he continues his conversation I pull up the video & play it. The first kick he witness’s his face said “what in the world” by the 2nd kick his face said “Wow!” & It only got better. So now I am sitting beside him on the bed you start moving again so I lay down (he is still on the phone) & put his hand on my belly, his facial expression must have changed about 10 times in 10 seconds. The first kick or punch you tossed him his eyes looked confused & he mouthed the words “Was that him?” but before he could finish the sentence you really took off jumping & kicking His eyes buldged & the faces started until they ended with a smile & the look of awe on his face was priceless. I wish I had recorded his reaction, but I didn’t think of it at the time.

Moving on to something slightly unpleasant... Why don’t you like plums? I LOVE them however have not been able to eat them since I have been pregnant with you, I have attempted on (officially)4 separate occasions & every time I have ended up getting sick. This is very unfortunate seeing as they’re one of my favourite fruits. I certainly hope it doesn’t stay this way after you are born. Also what is up with the hormones? I feel horrible sometimes cause I snap at your dad a lot & he doesn’t always deserve it. It would be nice if they calmed down a little cause I feel like a crazy person for crying or being angry for no reason.

Regardless of the few cons, I cannot begin to tell you how amazing carrying you is.  As much as I would like to fast forward to you being in my arms I am going to enjoy every minute of you growing inside of me. Not 100% sure how your dad feels about the pregnant part (probably does not enjoy my mood swings) but I do know he has been nothing short of amazing to both of us. He sings & talks to you & is always asking about you when he is not around. He & I love you so very much & can’t wait to meet you Lil’Man

Loving you forever & always,

 Mommy xoxo