My Son

Dear Bean

Your 34 weeks old tomorrow & I am just itching to meet you... I know you’re freaking out in there because you know I’m upset but please baby calm down, I promise by the time you get here everything will be ok no matter where we are. I promise to give you everything I never had! You’re not yet here & your father & I are having some major issues... I hope for your sake we can fix this & move on, I grew up without a proper dad or family & it would kill me to that happen to you! You deserve the best of the best & nothing less & I hope we can work things out & be the happy family you are worth. Just know that even if daddy & I can’t sort this out I will make sure you have more love than two parents could give. You are everything to me Jackson you are part of me & always will be nothing will ever change the fact that you are the ONLY important person in my life & I will do anything for you. I am trying really hard not to be upset right now cause you are just going crazy & I know you don’t like it but bare with me baby boy life is not as easy as I want it to be right now. Tomorrow we go for your 34 week check up & hope by then you are ok. I feel horrible for stirring you up like that, but on occasion things are beyond my control. So show the midwife that you’re still head down & let us listen to that healthy heart beat, it won’t be long now, soon enough baby you will be safe in momma’s arms xoxo

Loving you forever & always Your mother xoxo