It has always been real but now it’s getting REAL!

As the day draws near

My expected due date is December 6^th 2011 & to those who haven’t read my blog post “Planning My Perfect Birth” I plan on having an un-medicated water birth. I feel the female body is made for this & woman should not fear it but instead embrace it. I could not be happier about finding myself a midwife as she feels the same way about doing things naturally, it is very encouraging & makes me feel that much more sure about my decision.

My problem

Thanks to my friend Megan who introduced me to Twitter & my Twitter Mama circle I have many people I can discuss a variety of topics with ranging anywhere from baby & birth to relationship & money troubles. I absolutely adore having my Twitter mama’s around for support as it seems my family & friends tend to not be so supportive of my birth plan. This is a BIG problem for me. I know deep down what I want & I will get it, however when I have multiple people criticizing me & questioning me about what exactly it is that I want, it can get quite annoying & makes me second guess myself. It really bothers me when people ask about how I want to give birth & then make a face like they are appaulled with MY choice, following the face I often hear the words “You’re crazy!” or “Are you nuts?!” ... Very reassuring people, thank you for that.

Proud

I understand that medical advances have brought us to the point where labour & birth can be much more comfortable than it actually is, however I am choosing NOT to use any medication for multiple reasons & I am very proud of this decision. Now I have discussed it with my midwife quite a bit & there may be a need for medication & things may not go according to plan. That is more than ok, I just want my son to arrive here safely. It is fairly obvious that a woman’s body was made to bare children, it doesn’t take a genius to figure that out yet people including women who have children have been looking at me as if I am off the wall for my decisions! Ridiculous. I love my son & the fact that I have carried him for almost 9 months now, I love my body for the simple fact that it allows me to keep him safe & growing strong & I love  my decision to have this birth as naturally as possible cause I was made for this & I am extremely proud of this.

Waiting

Week 33 as of two days ago & I am for sure feeling it. I pretty much roll out of bed, I pee 4 to 6 times during my 6 hour sleep at night, I often have a foot stuck in my ribs or pushing into my lungs & it is driving me nuts when I attempt to shave anything waist down... Regardless of all this I am just enjoying my nesting while I await the arrival of my precious son. Some days though I feel differently, I wish I could just hit fast forward & be done already, but most days I think about how much I am going to miss feeling him move around inside me. 7 more weeks until my EDD if I make it that far, I can do this!!